Pray big; God will grant big things if you ask for them and are big enough to receive them"

I decided to fix the oh so empty looking book holder on my desk left deserted by the "Rebuilding" book....and bought a new book.... Positive Thinking Every Day by Normal Vincent Peale.

This was today's quote.

I am a prayer. I pray in good times, happy times, scary times and most definitely in sad times. WHO I pray to changes frequently. I do believe in God -- I was raised Catholic and still hold many of those sacred fundamentals in my heart -- but I also pray to my dad -- to Aaron -- and often, to Mary.

I'm thinking this Mary chick may have the key to my happiness. She's one tough lady -- and I am hoping that she sees a struggling mother trying to make a better way for herself, her children and her man. If I work hard enough and be the best person I know how to be, she might sneak in a good word with the Big One himself on merit alone. Who knows?

For today -- my big prayers, as the quote suggests, are about happiness. Please let me be happy. Let me pass my test tomorrow (which translates into make me get off the computer and study). Let Justin and I work thru the stupid things -- realize not to sweat the small stuff. Let the boys know how much I love them...and that all the time I spend in class, at work, in alcohol classes, etc is going to eventually come to a point where it is much more manageable. Please make me see that the top of the mountain, or at least this peak, is not far at all...let my family continue to be healthy -- and supportive of me. I literally could not do it without them all...

So...today -- I do have big prayers....and I believe God can grant them..."if I'm big enough" well hell, the scale told me I've got that handled!

Oof!