The clouds have lifted and the sun is brightly shining. My head is clearing as well, and my eyes are beginning to see the beauty of the light. Promise. Hope. Happiness.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Ten years ago, yesterday, I had my first miscarriage...

TEN YEARS...and I'm sad. I'm sad that I can't "be sad" with Joel. I'm sad that I doubt he remembers. I'm sad that he probably doesn't care, even if he did know. Yesterday, I allowed myself to be sad and alone with my thoughts. Today, I'm going to try and concentrate on the boys I have...even if sadness still envelopes me. Ten years. Wow.

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