My daily Tarot reading

The Moon represents those unknown forces and cycles that are out of your control. While aware of its presence, you are unable to comprehend the influence the Moon has on your life. While this is a time full of mystery and uncertainty, it is also a time of great imagination and creativity. You must be prepared to venture into the unknown and follow uncharted paths

Perfect for me these days....

So, I still am uncertain of my future -- I know, I know, we all are...but I mean immediate future. I did not get back into Block 3 at Gateway for the next sememster. I still have an inkling of a chance at Chandler-Gilbert, but I'm not feeling very positive about it. I registered for the EMT course in Scottsdale. I'm oddly very excited about it -- and about the prospect of possibly being an EMT -- and maybe even furthering that to becoming a paramedic. I know that they don't make shit for money though. I just don't know how it's really going to fit into my life. I can't take out financial aide, so I'm a little confused how I'm going to pay for school. I'm hoping (perhaps ignorantly) that I will be able to work at the hospital AND get a job as an EMT...I certainly need the dual income. The medical field is DEFINITELY where I want to be. I will finish my nursing degree...but I just don't HAVE THE CHOICE to do it NOW....so I have to think about my alternatives.

I'm just terrified about money. The bankruptcy will be such a relief...but I'm not there yet (I have to pay them almost 2k before they file) -- so the phone calls and such are a little unnerving. We just do not have the money to make it work. Justin got a job but it sucks...if work is slow, he gets called off. We can't live like that. He is testing for a GREAT job in the aviation field (working on the helicopters -- which is what he did in the Army) at the end of this month ---PLEASE PRAY for us that he gets it. It would be FABULOUS for us -- and for him, in general. He is such a good man and hard worker -- this would be great for his self esteem. I want that more than anything for him....truly, even more than just for the money.

So what to do - what to do... one day at a time...one day at a time...and just believe that God's plan for me works out sooner than later.

"Destiny is what you are supposed to do in life. Fate is what kicks you in the ass to make you do it."
— Henry Miller