I have a test tomorrow on medsurg...I have 3 tests in one week. WE have MORE points still OUT than we have in and that is almost enough to kill me. Tomorrow the focus is on liver failure, chronic kidney disease, diabetes, hepatitis and Gastrointestinal bleeds. I've studied....but probably not enough...and my mind is so all over the place that I'm not sure I'll even be able to study after I get home and that scares me.
I have 50 bucks in my account -- Justin has 3 in his account. I am pretty sure my copay is going to be 30 today -- but it very well could be 50 -- and then I'm screwed. Justin gets paid Friday -- but I'm not sure how we'll make it until then. I emailed Joel about the boys schedule and asked when he thought he might be able to get caught up with child support (last payment brought him up to mid October). That was almost a week ago and I haven't heard a word.
Absolutely filled with anxiety and angst. I've been trying hard to remain positive. I've done very well with my plan of change. It's not that difficult actually to love on the boys without drinking! That sounds gross...but you just never know until you try it. We had a really great weekend -- Dane had a sleep over birthday party so Justin and I made a Cole Night. We went to church and then went to Justin's sister, Mandy's, Christmas party. Cole, Justin and I sat on Santa's lap! :-)
Then Cole wanted sushi...so we went to Blue Wasabi.... then he got to sleep in my bed, which he just loves to do. In the morning we woke up and got him an apple bagel (his favorite.) It was truly special. I was so sad to see them go off to school on Monday -- will be nice to have them home again tomorrow night.
Anxiety...what a killer. I'll update soon.
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