Cole graduated from Preschool on Wed -- and Dane is out of school now too. Cole was so darn cute. He was for sure the best dressed little man there and sang the loudest too. Joel was there. We stood next to each other -- even took pictures for one another. We even walked out to the parking lot together -- both so happy of Cole. It felt like we were family for a moment, if only to say "yeah Bobo" and be on our way. Anyway -- then we proceeded to have a huge blow up yesterday over a complete and utter misunderstanding. That is what happens when we can't even carry a PHONE conversation. He is so controlled by "his boyfriend" it makes me sick -- either that or he is just afraid to deal with anything that has to do with me. Sometimes I think he just doesn't feel anything but disgust for me -- other times I know that he is just scared to give a little. It all just makes me so sad....
That on top of my last appt. being a total bust. I didn't like her as much as the first time. I was all of 3 minutes late -- and she came strolling in 10 minutes after saying that she thought I wasn't coming -- then she tied it up early. I got HOME with still 5 minutes "on the clock" of my whole whoppin hour. Sure, we talked about some good things....but...well, I could do this on my own. I made another appt. She has one shot and then I'm stopping. Period. I can read the book and work thru this all without someone else. Maybe.
I hate this....all of it.
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