a wise person once said "divorce can make you a better person -- or a bitter person." Right at this moment, I'm fading towards the bitter side. Joel just told me that he wants to do a walk thru of the house on Wednesday -- no, correction, "we want to do a walk thru". I am absolutely apalled that (s)HE would want to step foot in my house at ALL much less move into it -- and even more come "walk thru" when I my children and I are sitting there. Everytime I see her face, I want to punch it. I want to pull the knife out of my back and simply throw up. I don't understand it. I've sat in that very kitchen sobbing with her about how difficult it was going to be leaving Joel -- and she pushed "you will be happier,Kristen". We hung out all the time -- she was my goto divorce pro. She was Justin's biggest advocate. "Do what makes you happy" "Get a restraining order on Joel" "Use my divorce attorney" "Let's go out and find some new guys" She was the one that hooked up with anyone who was taken -- I should have known. She was the one that constantly told me to look elsewhere -- find someone who would make me happy....
...do you think she was interested in Joel the whole time?
But that said, he was so not interested in her. He use to say the ugliest things about her. He always called her a slut -- with a big ass....LOL He was right too. He was afraid of me going out with her because she had no morals. She would just find someone to make her life comfortable -- someone to take care of her and her boys (cause her first two husbands didn't do it) He said that she was manly -- which cracks me up -- cause that's the first thing that gets under his skin. (reality...reality).
They spent the weekend up at my family cabin -- yet again... how ridiculously pathetic. And for some reason they think it's OKAY to take down all my family pictures... Guess it's easier to sleep at night -- or **** -- without my family portraits staring at you?
A weak moment for me today -- I can't even IMAGINE feeling good about what they are doing -- to me -- to the boys. I can fake it and talk myself out of it most of the time. But this is just disgusting.
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Kristen ~ YOU will come out BETTER. J, on the other hand is just bitter, and won't ever get over that - no matter how many boys in her long line (and if Joel believes he's the last in that line, well Baby ~ you go out the way you came in ~ I truly believe that). And there there she is - stuck with the unhappiness that is her life - and no man can change that for her.
But YOU, Kristen - you will continue to grow and get better. Because you recognize that change comes, not from another person, but from within. And that makes you AMAZING in your independence and self-reliance.
love you
~Gina
Gina's right, you will come out better...
That being said, my ex used to say my friend KC was a beachball with teeth, until he found out her dad was rich. When I was in Denver with Dale, they started dating and they've been together ever since.
She was the one I went to when things were going wrong between my ex and I and she encouraged me to leave him.
She was/is a slut and a liar and all those other things, but now he is stuck with her and I have moved on to a wonderful man who loves me more than my ex could ever love anyone.
I am better off, Kristin, and so will you be...but it takes time. And it's painful. And you will get through it. Know that what they are doing is wrong and vile and yes, it's evil.
And also know that all the bad karma she has built up throughout the years will come back to haunt her.
Big hugs,
Love you...
Laurie
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