"If you want to know what God thinks of money, just look at the people he gave it to."

Things are looking up--- a little...Justin got a job --thank God. It's not anything that dreams are made of but it is work -- doing what he loves to do, which is working on cars. And it will pay some bills....we're both good with that.

I've been hard on him lately -- trying not to, but just feeling really deflated about money. I've never had a money issue, so this is new to me. He is the hardest worker I've ever met. I was raised around men who worked hard, but in a completely different line of work. I see Justin at work, filthy, sweating, and just on the ball...he comes home and Cole always states "Justin, you stiiiiiink" which I find incredibly adorable since he's never seen a man work hard. (And, that's not entirely a dig at his father -- the days his dad does work -- he comes home four hours later with a crease still in his pants...ok, ok, maybe it was a dig).... but I love that about Justin.

The other night I had a conversation with a dear friend, Melanie. She asked me what it was that I liked about Justin. I think she may have been expecting me to "hmmm and ummmm" but the answers came so easy. I need to remember that and stop being so down on things -- I need to believe that everything will work out -- because it will. It may not work out the way I thought it would, or thought it should, but it will work out...

Last night we had dinner with my cousin (second cousin to be exact).... I haven't seen her...in DECADES and was a little nervous as to how it would turn out. She was such a breath of fresh air. She found out at 34 that she had breast cancer. Since then she has completed her chemotherapy and radiation. She lost all her hair (and bought the most FABULOUS wigs...) She is a very high energy, independent woman...and this just knocked her on her tail. But seeing her last night, is proof that there is power in being positive and believing that your life's plan is already set. She is successful and beautiful and I get such a calming sense in her presence.

I'm not all religious but I do believe God has a plan, and it's up to us to grab ahold of it and make it happen. A blueprint really means nothing unless there is someone there to execute it. From time to time, you have to go back and look at the the blueprint when the pieces don't seem to fit together, but ultimately there comes a moment where you see what you did wrong, and figure out how to fix it. Justin is good at that. He has big changes in his life and he just runs with it and creates a new path. I'm trying to be proactive and see each detour in my life as simply that....a fork in the road leading to a greener pasture (so hard to do but I'm trying.) My life is already in a blueprint....and it's time to execute.