Doctor's appointment is at 10:00am today

...and I'm nervous as hell. I'm trying to stay positive...hoping that this is IT when it comes to my connection with skin cancer. IT'S OVER. I'm literally envisioning McDreamy saying, "the margins are clear. The infection has gone away. Finish the course of the antibiotics, though and I hope to see you NEVER." I believe in positive thinking -- and prayer. I went and saw my dad yesterday (and it wasn't to debate whether MLK Jr. should have his own day or not, LOL) -- and Aaron too. The cemetery brings me such a feeling of calmness and I asked them to be with me today. I'd like to think they are with me each and every day, but I figured it wouldn't hurt to ask.

My Tarot Card Reading for the day is quite appropriate:

Movement. Becoming unstuck and moving forward. Consideration of viewpoints and attitudes of others. Period of suffering ending. Ready to get on with things and back in the game. An opening of mind and heart. The end of a difficult time or cycle. Illumination. The way out has been discovered and is ready to be acted upon. Conformity. Allowing other's opinions to overrun your own. Things are turned upside down, but may appear right-side up. Look closely to discern how things really stand.

So, bring it....speed up the clock. Get me to that appointment. Get the stitches out and give me the pathology report. I'm removing the negative self talk and opening up my body so the light can shine in. I'm removing the sickness and allowing healthy tissue to be on my back. DEEP BREATH. I will not have a panic attack because I know I can handle this. With my Love, my family, my God and my grit -- I can handle anything. *gulp*

"Is it useful to feel fear, because it prepares you for nasty events, or is it useless, because nasty events will occur whether you are frightened or not?"

— Lemony Snicket