The clouds have lifted and the sun is brightly shining. My head is clearing as well, and my eyes are beginning to see the beauty of the light. Promise. Hope. Happiness.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Skin Cancer: Final Chapter



Margins are clear...stitches are removed....abscess appears to be healing up just fine (that is the scab in the middle) ---so as long as I finish up my round of antibiotics --McDreamy told me that he doesn't need to see me any longer (a breakup I clearly can accept)-- just to follow up with my dermatologist in 6 months and a loving talk of watching my skin and wearing sunscreen. I was so relieved that I left the office with tears in my eyes. Now, OK...at risk of being overly dramatic (who me!?), I was really scared that I would be the fateful statistic to lose a battle to cancer at a young age. You know the (strum the music) kind, "young mother of two dies after fast growing melanoma" tug at your heart strings story you hear all the time? I tried over and over again to get that broken record out of my head -- but let's face it...I don't have much of a positive history with cancer. I've known two people that have had it...and they were dead within a year of diagnosis -- one being my own father -- who died less than a month after his diagnosis. But all things said and done, my wonderful PCP spotted the suspicious mole and sent me to a fantastic dermatologist that did what she could and sent me to a fabulous oncologist/plastic surgeon who cut the bastard out of me...and now (cue music again)I feel like running thru the daisies or springing to the top of a mountain spinning around Julie Andrew style singing, "the hills are alive, with the sound of music...." I really can't wait to tell Dane, who has been so worried, and tells me daily how much he loves me and wishes I didn't have cancer. GULP I can't wait to see his face light up and hear him shout "GREAT" while giving me a bear hug...I can't WAIT for that!!! I feel foot loose and fancy free....and just couldn't be more thrilled. A little bump, in the grand scheme of things, I understand, but still...the "c" word...that made me really think.

My life is good, people. Damn good.

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